Family...

I'm constantly amazed at how domestic my friends and I are at such a young age. I can't decide if it is the norm or not. I am only 4 months away from completing my family and I haven't reached the age of 30, and... I am having the time of my life! That's not to say we are running short on struggles. We have enough for us and the neighbors, but while we are together at places like Sea World (vaca this summer), at Cold Stone (getting ice cream), or sitting in front of a Cowboy game in the living room...I realize how wonderful it is to be me. I was not born for commitment - my husband will be the first to tell you that, and I have very close friends that do not have a family and are pursueing lives that include freedom...freedom to go to the corner store without having a sitter, freedom to get their hair cut without getting permission to spend the money, freedom to make plans on a whim, freedom to go to sleep whenever they please...FREEDOM. I can't even remember what that freedom felt like. I have it much better than most though. My husband is an awesome Daddy and can do without me just fine. My in-laws (I'm convinced) just sit next to the phone waiting for us to call for a sitter. So, let me not complain...I'm just extremely intrigued by it all. Intrigued by my friends who live completely different lives than me and can't relate to the constant ache in my heart when I am away from my 3 year old best friend. Intrigued by how perfectly woven each life is and how the good Lord constructs it all so perfectly. Most of all I am intrigued by our human syndrome of "the grass is greener." God knows I will have those moments in which I look elsewhere and THINK that someone else has a better situation than me, better job than me, better financial standing than me; the list could continue, But GOD FORBID it last for more than a moment, because reality is...I am blessed!